haha. juz got back hm not long ago from our
MULTIPLY CGM! it's totally cool! though it ended kinda late and i kana scolding, but it's all worthwhile. (: had a great time leading praise for a
2nd time. great opportunity for god to use me. i can do better still, juz need more prac. cgm was funny, esp during e preaching of e word. an uninvited guest came for our cgm too! it was a
flyg cockroach! oh my tian, everyone of us freaked out. even my cgl. kekes. got kinda distracted bcoz of tt but still we got back into e presence of god. we sang "tt's wad frenz are for". i love my cg! had a great time of refreshment fellowship, sumptuous meal, as if u ordered those 'zi ca' out dere. lol.
evrythg was really juz cool. it's not gg to juz be hype and excitement after
EMERGE, but really wad we've caught during den tt will keep tt fire burning. nv will it be a one time event! i noe i gotta pray really alot much more to keep evrythg moving on. my cgl sat me down after tokg to a few others. evrythg she said kept my mind sping and thinkg. from personal matters till spiritual matters. i dun wan worldly thinkgs, i hate it. i hate things gg wrong but it still does happen for god's reason. im not gg to let things stop me from achieving greater things in christ. wad am i really called to? im lost. i gotta pray, i need e guidance of e HS, i dun wan to be wilful and miss e time.
not my will be urs be done. izzit really like wad my cgl said? lord, u teach me ur ways! im for sure thinkg and prayg thru wad my cgl says and advice. "if it could happen once, wad makes u so sure it'll not happen agn? not stable, wont be true, why dwell? dere's better ones out dere." *bam* im back to reality agn. god is really juz on time, i nearly wanna take a turn but he juz sends ppl to me. lost now, yet rebellious. but i noe i hafta take it be clear of wad hurts i've had cuz i dun wan hurts anymore when it seemed to haf ended but it hasnt. it's too much for me to bear. god, i take upon ur burden for it is light. wad to do? only god will noe. im trustg for sthg greater, sthg better, sthg for a lifetime. wad would keep me gg on till im old? i dun noe, but i noe things of e lord would definitely will. wad is really tt thing? im eager to noe, but i need patience. HS help me in such a time. i wanna take things real seriously. i need to count e cost before i get onto anythg. not gg to be rash anymore.
*ponders, pray*hoping tt u will change but i've lost much trust. able to earn it back? it depends but are u willing, are u e one?.five days. broken
leen
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