.: Welcome To My World. My Thoughts. :.

ps: very wordy, juz shut this window if u see no point readg.

i nearly cried like crazy when i saw daddy mummy walk down e aisle, they got themselves married to one another agn! im really glad to haf such an opportunity in my whole lifetime to see my parents get married. I LOVE CITY HARVEST CHURCH!

im very glad that daddy actually told me: "girl, thanks alot. it really came just in time". i tink i did e least as a daughter. every yr i had been tryg to do all sorts of stupid things juz to get them to date and fall in love. i thk God tt PK did it dis yr for them! fulfilment juz filled my heart. =)))))) more to come!
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i realised i havent been using my mind to tink for a long while. it's always good to take time out to tink. and i finally understood whr went wrong. why always go by emotional tinkg and not rational tinkg? energy draing... dis made e joy of e Lord filled me up to e brim for some reasons when i tink of e stupid things which i had been doing.

i came to a realizatn tt only when u're willg to lose sthg den u'll gain sthg. since u roughly noe tt u wont be able to keep it anymore. or u can say tt u alr heard tt it's a firm no to it. why hold on to sthg which will waste ur energy? 1 cor 9:24 "Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it." why run in a race juz for e sake of winng and not for e prize? of cuz, only if u feel it's worth and confident tt u'll not abuse e prize, den continue to run for it.

one can be competitive. but at least for e right reason. if i take part in tt race, i do noe i probably haf e chance to win, yet i choose to disqualify myself. not bcoz im not confident but bcoz i noe tt perhaps somebody else will not abuse the prize while i might bcoz im not sure if i really wan it. if tts e case, why win juz to prove tt im good, or i should say, better? at e end of e day, i'll probably juz be complaing abt e aches or injuries i get from e run than to feel a satisfactn knowg tt i've gained e prize. i noe dere'll be a race at e rite time with e rite prize tts worth my run. most imptly it'll really cause me to align my heart to run in a manner tt will win e prize bcoz i am very sure tt it's e prize i'll cherish wholeheartedly.

i noe tt usually a child would demandingly wan a toy esp when it's popular (my frenz haf it, so i oso wan it), but when he gets it, soon will get sick and tired of playg it bcoz it's not sthg wad he really wans. only until he finds a toy which will really cause him to sacrifice any other toys juz to get tt real toy he wans and one which can make him feel proud of, den he can find e true satisfactn. why envy others? be e envy of others instead.

it takes alot of strength for a fish to swim upstream, gg agst e current, while all e rest are swimmg downstream i.e. e salmon. it also takes alot of courage to not flow wif e huge school of other fishes. salmon are not easily influenced by e other fishes bcoz they are juz different. relatg it to a human, dere's juz different things to be done for different ppl at different time. perhaps it's juz not time. so no point gettg into e flow when everyone else is in e flow, though i noe tt certain things we do need to get into e flow for synergy to take place. it takes strength and courage to be different, but it's definitely possible.

Eccl 3:
1 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
2 A time to be born, And a time to die;
A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;
3 A time to kill, And a time to heal;
A time to break down, And a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, And a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to gain, And a time to lose;
A time to keep, And a time to throw away;
7 A time to tear, And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;
8 A time to love, And a time to hate;
A time of war, And a time of peace

only when u choose to lose, then u can see e gain. =D

juz cant wipe tt smile off my face.

leen
9:26 PM